The Art Of Positivity!
A short story where thinking positive is not the only way out. Aha! Stay onboard.
When I was a kid, whatever I thought would happen, actually never happened, be it good or bad. Gradually, it became a belief to which I held onto strongly. So, I figured out that to make things happen to me, I would think it would never happen. The converse theory!
And this turned out to be a proven fact of my life then. To brag a little (who doesn't like to!?), I always thought I wouldn't get a first rank in class and on the contrary I mostly ended up with one. So, that was the bait that I had laid out as a little girl.
As I grew up, I gradually moved out of my cacoon to a wide variety of experiences, a vast number of people, wherein I began to wonder if my proven method was wrong since the world was brewing with stories of positivity, the energy, attraction etc etc. So during my conquest to embrace this new way, things that I craved for declined, not entirely but the frequency skewed to a great extent. You can imagine the mix-up. The clear water was puddled!
To me, the biggest question was, why don't I get things the way I want or get what I want? (This was after the renunciation of the converse theory, without much thought). While I was at the juncture of this mind boggling question, I had begun to think like the majority of the world. And this was with my attempt to stay positive, by pushing hard to look at the "sunshine", everytime I did not get what I wanted.
Even before I could wonder, I was frustrated. The act of figuring out is what I call growing up, now. But, it wasn't very clear then. It was all about allowing (as per the rituals of the world), which eventually messed the mind thoroughly. It just left a feeling of confusion. That which I didn't know back then.
And I was still growing up, so messing my mind was work in progress. I wanted to be positive like the world, think, be and act positive. And to me, I realised you become consciously positive when you are actually not. Forced positivity. Otherwise, with a ray of optimism you are always marching forward, sub consciously.
Getting back to the point, where I became consciously positive to match my attitude with the attitide of the world, a lot of things were lost. I never got what I wanted. I had lost my 'midas touch' that I had as a little girl and for a very long time indeed. And the loss of things pushed me deep into frustration and a sense of incapability to get things that I yearned for.
And today, as I feel all grown up, I realise that you are your true self when you are a kid. You have all the positive forces around you that you do not have to invoke positivity consciously. For a reason, that your mind is pure, you are displaying your true nature, you are not corrupted by the worldliness of the world. And this is only because your family and your innocence wards you away from all unruly external forces. The essence of purity exists. Now that you have wings you realise that back to the nest is the best place to be. That true nature of yours that allowed you to get whatever you wanted. (And now I understand why children believe so firmly in angels and fairies and miracles).
So, as the creator, implementor and benefactor of the converse theory, I would always get what I wanted by thinking the opposite. No, I wouldn't term that negativity. I would call that an act of staying grounded, keeping expectations at bay and telling yourself that you will do your best and accept whatever the outcome is. That to me was always "success". That wouldn't be termed negativity again, because in doing so you brush away a million thoughts that might occur about this one thing and you listen to your gut when you need to act. And to listen to that one positive voice of my gut, I'm willing to sacrifice many a "forced positive" thoughts created in the mind and to not let the brain be screwed with too many thoughts. (And a dear friend of mine told me that your brain and mind are not alike. I'm in the process of decoding that bit. Watch out for more!)
Whilst I leave with some thoughts of your own, it is fine to be "not positive" in the mind while your brain does all the positive work. Don't force yourself to be like the world. Be yourself!
And yes, listen to your gut! Let it guide you! And whichever path you choose per your nature, stay true to yourself! Be righteous! :-)
When I was a kid, whatever I thought would happen, actually never happened, be it good or bad. Gradually, it became a belief to which I held onto strongly. So, I figured out that to make things happen to me, I would think it would never happen. The converse theory!
And this turned out to be a proven fact of my life then. To brag a little (who doesn't like to!?), I always thought I wouldn't get a first rank in class and on the contrary I mostly ended up with one. So, that was the bait that I had laid out as a little girl.
As I grew up, I gradually moved out of my cacoon to a wide variety of experiences, a vast number of people, wherein I began to wonder if my proven method was wrong since the world was brewing with stories of positivity, the energy, attraction etc etc. So during my conquest to embrace this new way, things that I craved for declined, not entirely but the frequency skewed to a great extent. You can imagine the mix-up. The clear water was puddled!
To me, the biggest question was, why don't I get things the way I want or get what I want? (This was after the renunciation of the converse theory, without much thought). While I was at the juncture of this mind boggling question, I had begun to think like the majority of the world. And this was with my attempt to stay positive, by pushing hard to look at the "sunshine", everytime I did not get what I wanted.
Even before I could wonder, I was frustrated. The act of figuring out is what I call growing up, now. But, it wasn't very clear then. It was all about allowing (as per the rituals of the world), which eventually messed the mind thoroughly. It just left a feeling of confusion. That which I didn't know back then.
And I was still growing up, so messing my mind was work in progress. I wanted to be positive like the world, think, be and act positive. And to me, I realised you become consciously positive when you are actually not. Forced positivity. Otherwise, with a ray of optimism you are always marching forward, sub consciously.
Getting back to the point, where I became consciously positive to match my attitude with the attitide of the world, a lot of things were lost. I never got what I wanted. I had lost my 'midas touch' that I had as a little girl and for a very long time indeed. And the loss of things pushed me deep into frustration and a sense of incapability to get things that I yearned for.
And today, as I feel all grown up, I realise that you are your true self when you are a kid. You have all the positive forces around you that you do not have to invoke positivity consciously. For a reason, that your mind is pure, you are displaying your true nature, you are not corrupted by the worldliness of the world. And this is only because your family and your innocence wards you away from all unruly external forces. The essence of purity exists. Now that you have wings you realise that back to the nest is the best place to be. That true nature of yours that allowed you to get whatever you wanted. (And now I understand why children believe so firmly in angels and fairies and miracles).
So, as the creator, implementor and benefactor of the converse theory, I would always get what I wanted by thinking the opposite. No, I wouldn't term that negativity. I would call that an act of staying grounded, keeping expectations at bay and telling yourself that you will do your best and accept whatever the outcome is. That to me was always "success". That wouldn't be termed negativity again, because in doing so you brush away a million thoughts that might occur about this one thing and you listen to your gut when you need to act. And to listen to that one positive voice of my gut, I'm willing to sacrifice many a "forced positive" thoughts created in the mind and to not let the brain be screwed with too many thoughts. (And a dear friend of mine told me that your brain and mind are not alike. I'm in the process of decoding that bit. Watch out for more!)
Whilst I leave with some thoughts of your own, it is fine to be "not positive" in the mind while your brain does all the positive work. Don't force yourself to be like the world. Be yourself!
And yes, listen to your gut! Let it guide you! And whichever path you choose per your nature, stay true to yourself! Be righteous! :-)
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